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to passionless contemplation。 I understand; now; the intellectual mood of the quietist。

Of course my good housekeeper has tended me perfectly; with the minimum of needless talk。 Wonderful woman!

If the evidence of a well…spent life is necessarily seen in 〃honour; love; obedience; troops of friends;〃 mine; it is clear; has fallen short of a moderate ideal。 Friends I have had; and have; but very few。 Honour and obedience……why; by a stretch; Mrs。 M… may perchance represent these blessings。 As for love……?

Let me tell myself the truth。 Do I really believe that at any time of my life I have been the kind of man who merits affection? I think not。 I have always been much too self…absorbed; too critical of all about me; too unreasonably proud。 Such men as I live and die alone; however much in appearance acpanied。 I do not repine at it; nay; lying day after day in solitude and silence; I have felt glad that it was so。 At least I give no one trouble; and that is much。 Most solemnly do I hope that in the latter days no long illness a this life of quiet enjoyment to the final peace。 So shall no one think of me with pained sympathy or with weariness。 One……two……even three may possibly feel regret; e the end how it may; but I do not flatter myself that to them I am more than an object of kindly thought at long intervals。 It is enough; it signifies that I have not erred wholly。 And when I think that my daily life testifies to an act of kindness such as I could never have dreamt of meriting from the man who performed it; may I not be much more than content?

VI

How I envy those who bee prudent without thwackings of experience! Such men seem to be not unmon。 I don't mean cold… blooded calculators of profit and loss in life's possibilities; nor yet the

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