ax made jellies in the storeroom； I climbed the three staircases； raised the trap…door of the attic； and having reached the leads； looked out afar over sequestered field and hill； and along dim sky…line—that then I longed for a power of vision which might overpass that limit； which might reach the busy world； towns； regions full of life I had heard of but never seen—that then I desired more of practical experience than I possessed； more of intercourse with my kind； of acquaintance with variety of character； than was here within my reach。 I valued what was good in Mrs。 Fairfax； and what was good in Adèle； but I believed in the existence of other and more vivid kinds of goodness； and what I believed in I wished to behold。
Who blames me？ Many； no doubt； and I shall be called discontented。 I could not help it： the restlessness was in my nature； it agitated me to pain sometimes。 Then my sole relief was to walk along the corridor of the third storey； backwards and forwards； safe in the silence and solitude of the spot； and allow my mind’s eye to dwell on whatever bright visions rose before it—and； certainly； they were many and glowing； to let my heart be heaved by the exultant movement； which； while it swelled it in trouble； expanded it with life； and； best of all； to open my inward ear to a tale that was never ended—a tale my imagination created； and narrated continuously； quickened with all of incident； life； fire； feeling； that I desired and had not in my actual existence。
It is in vain to say human beings ought to be satisfied ust have action； and they will make it if they cannot find it。 Millions are condemned to a stiller doom than mine； and millions are in silent revolt against their lot。 Nobody knows how many rebellions besides political rebellions ferme