r at Lowood？ The fever broke out there； and many of the pupils died。 She； however； did not die： but I said she did—I wish she had died！”
“A strange wish； Mrs。 Reed； why do you hate her so？”
“I had a dislike to her mother always； for she was my husband’s only sister； and a great favourite with him： he opposed the family’s disowning her when she made her low marriage； and when news came of her death； he wept like a simpleton。 He would send for the baby； though I entreated him rather to put it out to nurse and pay for its maintenance。 I hated it the first time I set my eyes on it—a sickly； whining； pining thing！ It would wail in its cradle all night long—not screaming heartily like any other child； but whimpering and moaning。 Reed pitied it； and he used to nurse it and notice it as if it had been his own： more； indeed； than he ever noticed his own at that age。 He would try to make my children friendly to the little beggar： the darlings could not bear it； and he was angry with them when they showed their dislike。 In his last illness； he had it brought continually to his bedside； and but an hour before he died； he bound me by vow to keep the creature。 I would as soon have been charged with a pauper brat out of a workhouse： but he was weak； naturally weak。 John does not at all resemble his father； and I am glad of it： John is like me and like my brothers—he is quite a Gibson。 Oh； I wish he would cease tormenting me with letters for money？ I have no more money to give him： we are getting poor。 I must send away half the servants and shut up part of the house； or let it off。 I can never submit to do that—yet how are we to get on？ Two…thirds of my ine goes in paying the interest of mortgages。 John gambles dreadfully； and always loses—poor boy！ He is beset by sharper